[Pale Fiction#1]

Uncle Shovel is backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk((((Ys!I'm lazy for blogging!!!Forgive me buddies!!!!

Now.... Imagine Shovel is a year 1 student who studied animation at the University, he just has to finish 2 academic years to get a degree....then keep imagining what Shovel desires is not just a degree to prove he knows animation but with a brand new thought. What could make this imagination come true? Here is a MUST do project I think of before I get into University. A poem to grieve my dear teacher, Miss Maria Fung(1953-2017) I went to University because of her, I keep doing artwork because of her. She is the one who rescued me from school bulling and encourage me to draw. But I just visit her twice after graduated.

The first time when I was sent back to live with my parent,

the second time when I was at her funeral. I was so regret so I think about many negative things which leads me cannot study. I was so regret so I can't stop crying. I was so regret so I keep drawing a character----TORU

When I closed my eyes, I saw a boy with no colors and emotion. See...it might be the magic of art, I was non-stop drawing him for 2 weeks

The first time I paint Toru, he was praying

Then he was sleeping with two black cats They are Chiu and Miu, the street cats live in the park nearby my house.

I can't breathe in my room, then I bring my sketchbook to draw them. Then they suddenly appeal with Toru in the illustration.

Chiu and Miu in Valentine's day

The I saw a dead bird

I'm more and more scared of death, I can't breathe

Just like I was full of dreams when I was a child

Everything just broke when I found death is so scary After that I start judging people keep talking 'Death is not scared','Suicide' To be Honest, if you haven't lost someone you love, you won't know how painful it was. I'm still not fully healed yet. Cos it was too painful But the University interview letter helps me to pick up my life. I even cried while I was doing the writing test(Topic: The most important day of my life --- my teacher's funeral)

Then I have been awhile forcing myself to stop thinking of my teacher. Til one day I'm picking illustrations to update my portfolio As you see, my usually style is black and red(My friend said it makes me looks cooler lol)

But with Toru illustation, they were all just gray, white and blue

I just draw them with my pure emotion which reminds me of why am I drawing. I was bullied when I was in primary school, so I create my own friends to play with me. I think Toru came for this reason. He might be the guardian of tear. When someone cry hard, he just came. That is why I start my final year project earlier than other classmate. Because the story of Toru is a MUST do project. It is time to reward my teacher, isn't it?

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